Little by Little…


Little by little…I am getting better but my problem is my patience. Turns out, I really don’t have any. If I could, I would go run, but I can’t and it pisses me off.  I am missing the cardio piece.  I am using loops and weights to work on my booty, abs, legs, and arms (as much as I can with restrictions/modifications)  but I’m missing that sweat you get from a good cardio workout. 💦 So today I did a holy hell booty workout with resistance loops.  I even made it harder by doubling up the loops with some exercises. Tomorrow will be abs and arms.    I am debating on joining the Y so I can use their pool.  I love swimming laps and it would give me the cardio I’m missing but not the impact on my foot.  I’m still wearing a brace, and if I’m at work, a boot (I walk too much at work). It’s still slightly swollen and really achy.  I have zero muscle tone in my ankle/foot. I can’t turn my foot inward or go up on my toes. (Like can’t even lift my foot up a centimeter). I would love to do yoga.  I will, eventually, but I need my foot to heal more first.  What other cardio exercises can I do that doesn’t involve weight on my foot or major foot movement? I am at a loss.  😳 I don’t want my lack of patience make things worse for me so any input is appreciated.  Thanks 😊

Have a great day; hopefully the weather by you is much better than here.  Cold (33°) and raining-just miserable!

Peace ✌🏼 


F#%kin’ Tacos

Tacos and cookies and everything else that’s delicious yet not good for us. Your food choices; It can make or break your health and fitness goals. Let’s be honest, who eats healthy every single day??? I wish I could 🙋🏻‍♀️ but I can’t. Why? I love tacos and cookies and everything else that’s delicious. I do eat well…better than many but sometimes…I just have to have a f#%kin’ taco. The key is moderation. I’m not going to eat 10 tacos or a box of cookies but I will make better choices. If I know I’m going to have desert, I will skip the bad carbs at dinner and eat more protein and veggies. That way I won’t feel bad for my choices. I don’t like to call them cheat meals because then I feel like I’m doing something bad. Too many times, food is tied to so much emotional garbage and it’s due to how we view it and ourselves. Just stop…life is too short to shame ourselves. If you want that cookie, eat it. Just don’t eat the entire box and add some more protein/veggies to your meal first. I find that I tend to stick to better eating when I allow myself to do this because I don’t feel guilty. Planning my meals helps a lot but allow yourself to have some flexibility. It’s a lifestyle not a diet. I choose to eat well and exercise because it makes me feel good. Seriously…how can one say no to Taco Tuesday?!? They are so damn good!

Peace ✌🏼

Baby Steps

I have been going bonkers not exercising, so I put on my brace (the boot would have been too heavy) and did some work on the floor with resistance bands. I was only able to do part of the 80 Day Obsession (AAA) program because the rest was standing. So I did “Girl” push-ups and crunches, oblique crunches, and Spider-Man pushups (modified). Baby steps…but happy I’m finally doing something and my foot isn’t throbbing. Yay!

Peace ✌🏼

Happy Birthday to Me 🎂

It’s been a while so I decided to write on my birthday. It’s my last year before I turn 50. 😳 How the hell did I get this old?? I don’t feel it at all!

48 was a crazy year! A lot has happened this past year…I mean A LOT! I graduated with my masters- YAY!!! By far one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. Needless to say, I’m done with school for a LONG TIME!!! Which is ironic…hard to do when you’re a teacher but I’ll stick with being in front of the class for a while.

There has been a lot of ups and downs this year but the biggest thing I have learned throughout it all is my health needs to be a priority; both physically and emotionally. I was diagnosed with anxiety; which really didn’t surprise me. I was overwhelmed with everything and what do I do when I become overwhelmed? I withdraw and I avoid; it was my coping mechanism. Not the best way to deal with things but it was a way to protect myself; protect myself from being hurt, from being overwhelmed, from letting my feelings consume me. My thoughts and fears were overwhelming at times…I didn’t know how to handle it so I withdrew…from everything and everyone. I also lashed out at the people closest to me; not proud of that, at all. I will figure out how to apologize to those I have upset or hurt through all of this. It’s not me, it’s not who I am and I hate that I have hurt them. I also learned I tend to absorb other people’s stress, especially from those closest to me! It caused more havoc with my emotions. I was a hot mess.

I am working on a being a better version of myself. I am seeing a therapist, exercising regularly, eating healthy, sleeping…well I try but I still need to work on that one. 🙄 This new exercise program I am doing is seriously crushing my abs, ass and arms. I love it! It uses weights, resistance bands, and slides for an intense whole body workout. It’s awesome! I am a work in progress!!!! Progress not perfection! I forgot how much I love exercising; it keeps me grounded!

ha ha that cracked me up because we all do it! Like I said…I am a work in progress! Not bad for a 49 year old…I will keep plugging along!

Quiet-it’s new to me. And I don’t mean outside noise level; the quiet that comes when your mind isn’t racing every minute you’re awake. I am working on being present. A concept so difficult to do when your brain won’t slow down. I’ve been in this state for so long, it was so hard to be present. It’s difficult to explain-It’s hard to slow down because you don’t want your mind to race. You hate the feeling because it consumes you. So I tried not to stop. I would continue to take on more and more so I would be constantly busy. I know when I did stop, I would fall asleep; partly because it’s exhausting having my mind race all the time and partly because I didn’t want to think. Ahhh…horrible cycle. One that I didn’t know I was in and definitely didn’t know how to stop it. I’m slowly figuring it out and so much more…thankfully! I’m learning balance; the balance I need within myself. My family and friends have been my rock and I am forever grateful for their love and support.❤️

I have a lot of things planned this year that I am really looking forward to-a couple concerts (Bon Jovi and Pearl Jam at Wrigley-I. Can’t. Wait. I am seriously giddy about seeing PJ), a few vacations, and of course, seeing a cubs game or two! So 49 is looking to be pretty damn good!!

Cheers 🍻

Reclaiming Me

It’s been a long time since I wrote on here. So much has happened. I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason, just not sure what that reason is yet. I’m sure I will figure it out…someday. I’m almost done with grad school…thank god!!! I walk across the stage May 2017 and you better believe I will enjoy every minute of it!  It’s been a long road these last couple years…more difficult than I ever imagined but it taught me that I am much stronger than I ever thought . That’s probably the best thing that’s come out of all this upheaval!

After hurting myself while training a while back, I never really got back to running. I ran a few times but my heart wasn’t in it. I didn’t get the rush I used to get before. I’m sure I will get back into it eventually, but not right now.  I have heard all the hype about #Beachbody and #21dayfix.  Honestly, I ignored it all. The “coaches” I knew bugged me, and I figured it was a fad which would pass…eventually. I didn’t need to lose weight, just tone up and get healthy so why bother.

Fast forward to travel baseball season. A baseball mom (and friend) exercises regularly. She asked if I wanted to join her clean eating group. 5 days clean eating. I was all for it because I have wanted to try it for a while. It was free and I got a ton of recipes to try. I normally eat pretty well with the occasional pig out of everything unhealthy so I figured it wouldn’t be that bad. It wasn’t except finding time to prep.

She then approached me about joining her 21 Day Fix group. She was running a special so I figured why not try it. I flat out told her I wasn’t going to do the containers for food. I knew I wouldn’t keep it up plus I wasn’t trying to lose weight. She said no problem so I was good to go…Shakeology has been good. I am liking the vegan chocolate. (Tastes like choc milk). I can’t drink an entire serving in one sitting. It’s just too much. So I have been splitting it and have half in the morning and half in the afternoon. I love LOVE the workouts in this program!  It’s a total body workout and holy crap does it kick your ass!!! I normally have trouble with squats because it hurts my knees. This program includes so many different kinds of squats and surprisingly, my knees are fine!  The best part of the program is I’m seeing results already!

crazy the definition I am seeing in such a short amount of time!

So I will continue with these workouts and most likely do the extreme workout next. My coaches are awesome and push me to work out (even when I don’t want to). They push me to better myself!  ❤️❤️ One thing I have realized is I’m not a gym rat…hate going there and hate the time it takes. So I won’t waste my money on that anymore.

This summer I am working on me. I am eating healthier, exercising more, hanging out with my friends, meeting new people and having fun. Someone I know used to say, “I’m kicking ass and taking names”…that’s exactly what I’m doing!

Until next time…